i have seen so many people asking for help?
it just gets me when I see someone saying "everything will get better". I have lived a life of hell for the past 35 years. I was taken away from my parents at 2. put into a home at 5. home was abusive. brother dies 8 years later in car accident. home finally shut down. multiple group homes. find mom. have more personal problems. then 1 year ago check up on her(she had fibromyalgia) since I was living with her to care for her found her passed away. I have no support. never learned what a friend was. No life is not getting better. I hate. Literally hate my life. I have no one. Zero support. I am on the highway to passing away. Please don't get mad at me. I am or have been crying and crying for over an hour now. I need to speak up about this. If you would like to give me advice please do.
that made me laugh. no there isnt anyone I am attracted to. I wouldnt know the first thing aabout that. I do not like love and dont know how. try and live my life. I think love is learned. Yes God is my only refuge but geez this weight hurts so much as well as seeing my mom dead.
Public Comments
1. Hey there Hun Im sorry that you have been having it hard. But life doesn’t have to be like this you can put your foot down once and for all and break out off this. Im not sure if you are believer in Jesus Christ but I know that he doesn’t want you to live life like this he wants to restore everything that has been taking away from you he wants to restore your joy and peace. He cam so that you could live life to the fullest not to feel alone and depressed. God has so much in stored for you he wants you to overcome anything that has been getting in your way. He loves you so much you are his child and the apple of his eye. He will never leave you or forsake you. He will take a huge load that you have been carrying just turn to him make him your lord and Saviour he will change your life. God has good day ahead for you and he wants you to live an abundant life. He wants to bless you with his favor and love. Just turn to him. I will be praying for you. These are some verses from the bible please read this. Jesus loves you and has better things for you.My Child,
You may not know me,
but I know everything about you.
Psalm 139:1
I know when you sit down and when you rise up.
Psalm 139:2
I am familiar with all your ways.
Psalm 139:3
Even the very hairs on your head are numbered.
Matthew 10:29-31
For you were made in my image.
Genesis 1:27
In me you live and move and have your being.
Acts 17:28
For you are my offspring.
Acts 17:28
I knew you even before you were conceived.
Jeremiah 1:4-5
I chose you when I planned creation.
Ephesians 1:11-12
You were not a mistake,
for all your days are written in my book.
Psalm 139:15-16
I determined the exact time of your birth
and where you would live.
Acts 17:26
You are fearfully and wonderfully made.
Psalm 139:14
I knit you together in your mother's womb.
Psalm 139:13
And brought you forth on the day you were born.
Psalm 71:6
I have been misrepresented
by those who don't know me.
John 8:41-44
I am not distant and angry,
but am the complete expression of love.
1 John 4:16
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you.
1 John 3:1
Simply because you are my child
and I am your Father.
1 John 3:1
I offer you more than your earthly father ever could.
Matthew 7:11
For I am the perfect father.
Matthew 5:48
Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand.
James 1:17
For I am your provider and I meet all your needs.
Matthew 6:31-33
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope.
Jeremiah 29:11
Because I love you with an everlasting love.
Jeremiah 31:3
My thoughts toward you are countless
as the sand on the seashore.
Psalms 139:17-18
And I rejoice over you with singing.
Zephaniah 3:17
I will never stop doing good to you.
Jeremiah 32:40
For you are my treasured possession.
Exodus 19:5
I desire to establish you
with all my heart and all my soul.
Jeremiah 32:41
And I want to show you great and marvelous things.
Jeremiah 33:3
If you seek me with all your heart,
you will find me.
Deuteronomy 4:29
Delight in me and I will give you
the desires of your heart.
Psalm 37:4
For it is I who gave you those desires.
Philippians 2:13
I am able to do more for you
than you could possibly imagine.
Ephesians 3:20
For I am your greatest encourager.
2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
I am also the Father who comforts you
in all your troubles.
2 Corinthians 1:3-4
When you are brokenhearted,
I am close to you.
Psalm 34:18
As a shepherd carries a lamb,
I have carried you close to my heart.
Isaiah 40:11
One day I will wipe away
every tear from your eyes.
Revelation 21:3-4
And I'll take away all the pain
you have suffered on this earth.
Revelation 21:3-4
I am your Father, and I love you
even as I love my son, Jesus.
John 17:23
For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed.
John 17:26
He is the exact representation of my being.
Hebrews 1:3
He came to demonstrate that I am for you,
not against you.
Romans 8:31
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19
Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19
His death was the ultimate expression
of my love for you.
1 John 4:10
I gave up everything I loved
that I might gain your love.
Romans 8:31-32
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus,
you receive me.
1 John 2:23
And nothing will ever separate you
from my love again.
Romans 8:38-39
Come home and I'll throw the biggest party
heaven has ever seen.
Luke 15:7
I have always been Father,
and will always be Father.
Ephesians 3:14-15
My question is…
Will you be my child?
John 1:12-13
I am waiting for you.
Luke 15:11
2. Keep crying, that's the only advice I have, and then fall asleep, and the next day might feel better.
As far as the long run goes, therapy might help, medication might help, seeing a witchdoctor might help too!
Sounds like you had a rougher life then most people have, but there's nothing that can be done about that now, and what happened has already happened, and all you can really do is get over it. It will take tears, maybe some liquor, and a lot of time and patience....
But you need to find a friend, someone you can trust, and I have always found the real world to be cold and unfriendly, so I would suggest looking online, it can be a LOT easier to talk about things when you cant see the other person on the other end. And you don't have to worry about embarrassing yourself by crying too much, having to face them the next day, ect...
If you're really upset, there are suicide hot-lines on the front page of most phone books, you can search for them online, or even just call 411/ operator. Or go to the emergency room, say you're suicidal, and they have to commit you (it can be scary but it helps some people a lot, just to get away from like for a few days)
Just try to find someone who you can talk to, trusting comes with a lot more time.
Good luck.
3. That sucks. obviously there is something good that motivates you, otherwise you would've given up long ago. You're obviously very strong. If you can't think of the positive thing in your life that motivates then go out and find one. Chances are that you don't trust people which is understandable. The thing is that even though people naturally long for companionship they don't need it. Go out and do stuff for you every once and a while. Find something that makes you happy. If you are attached to anyone right now then they don't know you feel this way. If they do know and don't understand that you need to have some good thing in your life, and if they dont like it then they need to stop being such a selfish bitch.
4. Larry, you have had some incredibly bad breaks. It won't fix itself overnight, but you have got to have faith that your life will be better. First, you need to find a local mental health center, so you can confide in a professional that you can trust. You are going to need to build trust in people because you have been abandoned. Slowly but surely you will be able to let people in to your inner circle. Eventually you can and will find people who want to love you. Please give it a try. I volunteer at a soup kitchen and so many people there have seen bad times. But when they come in and eat with others there is definitely some fellowship, I'm not particularly religious but I think joining a church may be quite beneficial. You will have to give love to get love. Good Luck.
